these past couple weeks blaze has been very trying and hard to listen to.
not this past week, but the week before jason (youth pastor), spoke and printed off this sheet as a guide as to how we should live our lives as christian. now before the jumping of conclusions arise, it wasn't a list of rules or things you must follow/do to be a christian, they were just explaining what it's like to be completely and utterly obsessed with Jesus Christ.
so blaze has left me feeling pretty...guilty. ha, that wasn't the point and jason made that very clear. yet, it stung a little. okay, a lot. it made me take a good look at myself as to if i am shedding the love of Jesus. uhh, that was a weird anology. hopefully you get my flow here. tah, anyway, so of course wednesday nights i go home fired up. i'm going to live for Jesus, spread love, stop drama!
BAM, it's thursday morning and i hate everyone. awesome lizz, awesome. way to SUCK IT UP!
so that wednesday i had a good discussion with danch, (i suggest no matter who you are, she can give awesome advice!), and i talked about how sucky i am. and she explains to me that it's MY journey. i will suck, and i will mess up. i say yes danch but i shouldn't mess up! hey, lizz..you're going to, get over it. so i have been struggling with this whole thing.
this week was a whole new subject. 3STORY.
reaching out to those friends of yours who do not know Christ as their personal savior.
oh yay! i get to start losing more friends because i'll be shoving Jesus down their throats!
sike, it doesn't have to be like that.
but will i make the choice to reach out to others,
am i too scared?
i guess we'll find out, eh?
this has a point, promise.
the guy, ivan, that was speaking and going through this little book with us showed a lot of small vid clips, in one they were just interviewing other random people, and one guy said something that stuck out to me..
"God has to increase, so I can decrease."
take from that what you will, but if i let God lead my life, show me what to do, and i trust in him, my crappiness will decrease. it will fade away, slowly but surely.
& to me,
that's very reassuring.
see you later alligator,
wizbang
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ReplyDeletewanting to be at the destination. wanting to just have it right.
i am excited for you and your journey. and everything you are learning right here. right now, right along the way. :]
i love how honest you are on here.
ReplyDeleteits true, life is a journey. take joy in the journey. there is such beauty in brokenness. it's how we avoid being a pharisee. we have to remember our need for a Savior. it's not just our non-Christian friends who need Him. WE do, too. if we think we don't, we wouldn't be Christians after all!