currently what's up in blaze. 4/15

these past couple weeks blaze has been very trying and hard to listen to.

not this past week, but the week before jason (youth pastor), spoke and printed off this sheet as a guide as to how we should live our lives as christian. now before the jumping of conclusions arise, it wasn't a list of rules or things you must follow/do to be a christian, they were just explaining what it's like to be completely and utterly obsessed with Jesus Christ.

so blaze has left me feeling pretty...guilty. ha, that wasn't the point and jason made that very clear. yet, it stung a little. okay, a lot. it made me take a good look at myself as to if i am shedding the love of Jesus. uhh, that was a weird anology. hopefully you get my flow here. tah, anyway, so of course wednesday nights i go home fired up. i'm going to live for Jesus, spread love, stop drama!
BAM, it's thursday morning and i hate everyone. awesome lizz, awesome. way to SUCK IT UP!

so that wednesday i had a good discussion with danch, (i suggest no matter who you are, she can give awesome advice!), and i talked about how sucky i am. and she explains to me that it's MY journey. i will suck, and i will mess up. i say yes danch but i shouldn't mess up! hey, lizz..you're going to, get over it. so i have been struggling with this whole thing.

this week was a whole new subject. 3STORY.
reaching out to those friends of yours who do not know Christ as their personal savior.
oh yay! i get to start losing more friends because i'll be shoving Jesus down their throats!
sike, it doesn't have to be like that.
but will i make the choice to reach out to others,
am i too scared?
i guess we'll find out, eh?

this has a point, promise.

the guy, ivan, that was speaking and going through this little book with us showed a lot of small vid clips, in one they were just interviewing other random people, and one guy said something that stuck out to me..
"God has to increase, so I can decrease."
take from that what you will, but if i let God lead my life, show me what to do, and i trust in him, my crappiness will decrease. it will fade away, slowly but surely.

& to me,
that's very reassuring.

see you later alligator,
wizbang

the barn! 4/5/10

even though i don't get my busy butt out there enough, the barn is one of my favorite places ever. on the contrary, i think it is my ultimate favorite place ever.

mmmmm, especially in summer. the summer breeze there is unbelievable. most people do not appreciate the smell of the barn, but i sure do. it's so peaceful out there. it's quiet unlike the city streets. it's so relaxing.



to answer any questions, no the barn or the horses are not mine. but i have been riding these horses since 5th grade. i have free reign to ride or go out there anytime. and i take care of them while their owner's are out of town. examples: spring break & christmas break. i love doing it. it's good training for me, because i want to own a ranch one day.

i really enjoy going out there by myself. it's so calm, and i can just unwind and think.



the horses out there are amazing. rusty will always be my favorite. he's the old fart, yet he thinks he is head hancho. nugget is mr. attitude but he's growing on me. & our new addition is ms willa. she's freakin adorable. she is kinda pyscho & frantic, but hey, she's a baby.

i love the city, & shopping, & all that, but there is just something that grabs at me for country. if i had to choose it would be to live on ranch in the country away from everything but if i needed to, i could take a 30 minute drive and i'd land right in a city. it's ironic because i want to be a photographer for vogue, that's kind of my dream, but i'm settling for living on a ranch and picture taking different things.
we'll see what happens, this was just a ramble of things i think about.



my adventure has begun and i know God will put me, where he wants to put me.

see you later alligator,
wizbang.